Find Your Howl by Jonathan Flaum presents a story written by a friend of his in the fifth grade. The story is of a tiger who lives in a zoo that is constantly trying to escape from the cages around him. No matter how far he jumps, he never makes it beyond another cage, and in the end, never accomplishes his goal of escaping his own ‘cage.’ I draw two points from the story. First, the tiger brings the cage and the zoo with him because it has become a part of him. Secondly, to overcome our own cage, we must overcome ourselves, and that means digging our own dark tunnel underneath the fence.

As an audio production student, the most difficult question one can ask me is what is my favorite artist or genre of music. To be honest, I will never be able to answer this question. One song that has spoken to me in the past, and more so as I have matured, is Neil Young’s masterpiece titled Old Man. As a child I heard, “Oh Leo, you resemble your father so much,” and “Oh Leo, you act just like your father,” from countless family members and friends. I had never given this much thought until roughly four years ago, and that moment sticks with me to this day.
My father and I have taken several road trips around the country, specifically to Maine, Colorado, and New Mexico. It was on one of our spring break road trips to Colorado when Old Man came on the satellite radio. At that moment, speeding through the middle of Nebraska, time slowed down for three minutes and I thought to myself, “wow Leo, you are turning out to be exactly like your dad.” I couldn’t tell if my dad was pondering the same thoughts in his own mind. Ever since that day, I have been realizing more frequently, through little quirky actions, that I am and most likely will be exactly like my father, and I am honored to do so.
If you have ever heard Neil Young talk during one of his live performances, you will take note that he is a sincere, deep, and thoughtful man. At times, he might come across as awkward or shy. In many ways, I come across the same way. His voice thrives in his lyrics and how he strums his beloved guitar. Let’s take a closer look at the lyrics of Old Man.
The opening lyric, “Old man take a look at my life, I’m a lot like you were,” sums up the greater meaning of the song to me. It is all about the realization that you are becoming like your father, the man who created you, and going through similar hardships trying to figure out your life, just as your father did (or maybe still doing). Another stanza that sticks out to me is “I’ve been first and last, look at how the time goes past. But I’m all alone at last, rolling home to you.” I have always been told that life goes by fast, primarily by elders in my life. Neil is saying that in the end, you will be alone and fall back on what you love most and what you were build upon. Life is all about ‘finding your howl’ falling back on it, in this case of the son, his father.
Apart from the emotional meaning of the song, it is one of my favorites in the classic rock genre. Neil Young’s guitar language is articulated so uniquely. It is calm, punctual, and similar to his voice, most importantly pure. When the production is taken away surrounding each of his songs and you strip it down to the man and his beloved guitar (old black), what is left is the same as before. The passion and influence heard in his productions is only to emphasize his voice and guitar work. Neil’s voice could calm the devil. Maybe that is why my ears are seduced to such an astonishing height each time I take a listen to Old Man.